August 11, 2008

A String Of Thoughts....


Another night passes; another day comes to an end
Its night now...but I am still wide awake...
Thinking when the Prince will come into my life -
Rid me of this intense pain I keep feeling...
Wide-eyed I lie on the bed
Staring into the darkness, looking above
There lays a hope buried inside of me...
It struggles desperately to get out of here
But I can't let it go...
What fight is this?
Ripping apart my heart and soul
Tearing me apart from inside
There are no winners in this battle
I try to cry my eyes out
But no tears would come
There's nothing for it...
No escaping this trap I somehow got into
I spend sleepless nights alone...
Lost in the dark I’m
Can’t find a way out of this mess!
Can’t find a solution to all the problems that arises
It feels as if winter has come so many months early
I can feel my heart breaking into a million pieces
What am I to do now?
I turn over in my bed
Trying to desperately sleep for a few hours
When will this feeling of loss and confusion end?
I shriek in anguish – but the tears...
The tears refuse to come!
This hollow feeling refuses to go
I am lost forever and I know that now
No Prince will ever come to save me
I should stop dreaming now...
Getting my hopes up is really not my thing
I bury my head in the pillow –
I can think about all this in the morning
Yes, I’ll think about it tomorrow!
Till then, let me close my eyes
Perhaps deep inside me, I might find my answer
I mean to say,
Maybe –just maybe – I might find Him some day
I might find my Prince...

August 7, 2008

It's Too Late....But Time Can Heal....

It's too long, too late now....
To tell you what I felt long time ago
To let you inside and show you my heart
A heart that is forever yours.....
But now in the arms of another

I could be with him all my life
I could have laughed the loudest with him;
I might have kissed him first.....

Yet you still remain forever in my mind
I never could tell you
And it's too late now, too late, darling

Our happiness has been lost
Never can we find solace with one another
Neither with others.....

We will never confess the true feeling
And forever be punished for this one sin,
This one mistake

Never knowing when the time is right
And when it's just too late

I'm sorry I joked before
Believe me, when I said all that -
My heart bled more

To be hurt, to feel lost
Those are feelings I am pretty used to
Give it time.....just time.....

For that alone can heal us.........

August 2, 2008

Don't Blame Yourself....


I don't blame you
For breaking my heart
For you never could break something
That wasn't even whole from the start

I don't hate you
For not falling in love
For you never will understand
Your friendship to me is enough

I don't blame you
For leaving me far away, behind
For you never were there
It's my fault I was so blind

I don't think it's your fault
That I fell down hard, crashed onto the floor
The crash never was your fault
You'd sailed ahead...through the next door

It never was you
It was always me who was to blame
I admit that it was all wrong
You're the winner, and I'm the loser of this game

I Met You

The days have never been sweeter,
Since the day I met you.
The winds have never been cooler,
From the day I met you…
The nights have never been filled with vagrant thoughts,
After the days I met you!
Each day goes by now with me simply gazing,
Smiling to myself as I realize what’s happening…
I am falling in love with you
The birds sing this truth to me from dawn to dusk
The air smells of this feeling during the nights.
And when suddenly from my sleep I rise…
I suddenly realize…
I am in love.
In my dreams all I see is you
My dreams are all made up of you…
I keep on thinking of you and smile bitterly when it dawns on me-
You no longer belong to me.
I have no right to tell you how much I still love you.
Because you’ve left me behind…feeling unwanted and unloved….
You now are far away from me
And that’s the way I’ll let things be…
But I do promise everyday “I say a little prayer for you”,
For Good God deserves to look after a darling like you.
I am sure and always will be, sometime, somewhere you’ve loved me.
That love of yours is enough to keep me going through out the rest of my life…