August 11, 2008

A String Of Thoughts....


Another night passes; another day comes to an end
Its night now...but I am still wide awake...
Thinking when the Prince will come into my life -
Rid me of this intense pain I keep feeling...
Wide-eyed I lie on the bed
Staring into the darkness, looking above
There lays a hope buried inside of me...
It struggles desperately to get out of here
But I can't let it go...
What fight is this?
Ripping apart my heart and soul
Tearing me apart from inside
There are no winners in this battle
I try to cry my eyes out
But no tears would come
There's nothing for it...
No escaping this trap I somehow got into
I spend sleepless nights alone...
Lost in the dark I’m
Can’t find a way out of this mess!
Can’t find a solution to all the problems that arises
It feels as if winter has come so many months early
I can feel my heart breaking into a million pieces
What am I to do now?
I turn over in my bed
Trying to desperately sleep for a few hours
When will this feeling of loss and confusion end?
I shriek in anguish – but the tears...
The tears refuse to come!
This hollow feeling refuses to go
I am lost forever and I know that now
No Prince will ever come to save me
I should stop dreaming now...
Getting my hopes up is really not my thing
I bury my head in the pillow –
I can think about all this in the morning
Yes, I’ll think about it tomorrow!
Till then, let me close my eyes
Perhaps deep inside me, I might find my answer
I mean to say,
Maybe –just maybe – I might find Him some day
I might find my Prince...

August 7, 2008

It's Too Late....But Time Can Heal....

It's too long, too late now....
To tell you what I felt long time ago
To let you inside and show you my heart
A heart that is forever yours.....
But now in the arms of another

I could be with him all my life
I could have laughed the loudest with him;
I might have kissed him first.....

Yet you still remain forever in my mind
I never could tell you
And it's too late now, too late, darling

Our happiness has been lost
Never can we find solace with one another
Neither with others.....

We will never confess the true feeling
And forever be punished for this one sin,
This one mistake

Never knowing when the time is right
And when it's just too late

I'm sorry I joked before
Believe me, when I said all that -
My heart bled more

To be hurt, to feel lost
Those are feelings I am pretty used to
Give it time.....just time.....

For that alone can heal us.........

August 2, 2008

Don't Blame Yourself....


I don't blame you
For breaking my heart
For you never could break something
That wasn't even whole from the start

I don't hate you
For not falling in love
For you never will understand
Your friendship to me is enough

I don't blame you
For leaving me far away, behind
For you never were there
It's my fault I was so blind

I don't think it's your fault
That I fell down hard, crashed onto the floor
The crash never was your fault
You'd sailed ahead...through the next door

It never was you
It was always me who was to blame
I admit that it was all wrong
You're the winner, and I'm the loser of this game

I Met You

The days have never been sweeter,
Since the day I met you.
The winds have never been cooler,
From the day I met you…
The nights have never been filled with vagrant thoughts,
After the days I met you!
Each day goes by now with me simply gazing,
Smiling to myself as I realize what’s happening…
I am falling in love with you
The birds sing this truth to me from dawn to dusk
The air smells of this feeling during the nights.
And when suddenly from my sleep I rise…
I suddenly realize…
I am in love.
In my dreams all I see is you
My dreams are all made up of you…
I keep on thinking of you and smile bitterly when it dawns on me-
You no longer belong to me.
I have no right to tell you how much I still love you.
Because you’ve left me behind…feeling unwanted and unloved….
You now are far away from me
And that’s the way I’ll let things be…
But I do promise everyday “I say a little prayer for you”,
For Good God deserves to look after a darling like you.
I am sure and always will be, sometime, somewhere you’ve loved me.
That love of yours is enough to keep me going through out the rest of my life…

July 31, 2008

Untitled

Empty corridoor
Empty room
Empty bed
And an empty heart

Never thought just one person would hold such a place
In my little heart!

Never imagined that if one footstep died away,
It would create so many echoes

Never did it cross my mind that just one individual's absence
Would bring forth the void in my life

People meet, stay and then they part....
If they have to leave, why do they take up a special place in our heart?

I had never thought that one's going a way
would make me face an emotion I never faced before

Never would I be compelled to say "I miss you"

But all that changed...and I do miss the sweetest girl
That God had gifted me even before I was born

She is a Goddess of her own kind, with flaws and perfection blended together

I start each time someone mentions her name,
Talks about her,
Or even carelessly speaks of the past

It hurts me to miss her,
For I know she isn't here for a greater cause

But the heart is selfish and rules over the mind
And always wants to get its way
To go where she is, is what it desires

It is an impossible dream
It gets broken each time I think of being near her
And I go back to missing her
The pain is torture
But I am learning to live with it

Dear girl, one day we shall be together again
Till then, I am fated to miss you
In my inward eye, I can see your face

Amused to see such emotion,
To see me missing you so much
And with a laugh reassuring me of being united again

And with a forced laugh,
I ease myself and learn to believe
This separation is not eternal.........

Like all things, our separation also will have an end..........

However, it that day - I am haunted by the sights of an
Empty corridoor
Empty room
Empty bed
And my empty heart.............

Hands Of God



There were days when the Sun would shine,
Shine brightly in the sky
For even He knew that true relations never die

But now the Sun has been clouded over
He cannot penetrate through the darkness
He cannot save me from Fate

I will lose the sweetest piece of my heart
Someone I had loved so much
It hurts me....
To think life has taken a different route
And I am in the road not many tread

Innocence was long since lost
The dreams that the heart craved -
had long since been broken
In reality....there never is a happily ever after

Yet, I can't bring myself to give up
Although I despair...some part of me
Is lost in the depths that hopeless hope brings
My heart is set on dreaming well of the future...
It refuses to believe all has been lost

Not everything is to be left to God or Fate
Sometimes....we are faced with choices
And I choose happiness
I want to see myself break into a smile,
Feel the warmth that only a happy heart offers....
Be cheerful even when I'm faced with sorrow
Because only that will see me through to tomorrow

See me through my life,
See me through time....
And deliver me safely into the Hands Of God......

June 8, 2008

Don't Cry At My Funeral


Don't Cry At My Funeral

I have a request, of everyone of you
I want you to promise me something
Swear on me that no matter whatever you do
You won't cry at my funeral.....

I can't imagine leaving behind this world
With the ones I'm closest to crying their eyes out
Mourning over the loss of just another girl
'Cause I won't be able to stop any one of you

I'd rather, people smile upon me
And cover me with beautiful flowers
I'd rather, they say 'I'm glad she's finally free'
And gently caress my head and bid me farewell

If you cry when I'm to be taken to better place
Be warned, I'll look upon you indignantly
I'll lose all that you loved in me: my grace
I won't be happy wherever God may send me

Sometimes, I sit and wonder why
Why would any one cry for me?
Cause the one I love always has to die....
There never will be anyone who actually would feel lost.......

Was I Right?


Was I Right?

Was I really waiting for the Prince coming to me?
Was I really hoping for my happily ever after
Or was I only dreaming again???

Did I really take a wrong decision?
Or was I right?

Right to quit waiting for someone;
Someone I thought I was so in love with
For whom I spent so many sleepless nights...

I helped him through thick and thin
Through trouble and pain....

Did I do something wrong again?

My beloved, for whom I had the truest heart
For whom I could have done anything...
Why didn't you say something at the start?

He loved me silently, and he made me wait
Never crossed his mind this thought:
HE COULD BE TOO LATE

I'm a hopeless romantic, with notions of love
That runs real deep

The last chance is gone, into the shadows
The last hope to be together has faded away
But what remains of my feelings....

Those remains still hurt

It hurts most...because we were so very close
And we had so much that we wanted to say
But....I let you walk away

I will never come to know
What could have been...

'Cause I never realized I was in love with you

Now even for me it's too late to start over
But I did love you all along
And I missed you more than you can imagine

I could never deal with the pain of losing you
There were days I forced myself to smile
I don't know, how I got through those days
Because I missed you so much it hurt me

My heart had shattered, and my wounds refused to heal

But I know I can never tell you what I really feel
'Cause I'm gone, though I'm still yours forever
.....Just not together.....

What is the point of admitting that I could no longer wait?
That I went off accepting this was all fate
I'm sorry...but you were just too late....

It was mind that wanted comfort, not my heart
My heart has always been true
And it has been truest to you

I thought I'd never fall in love
After getting it broken once
Then you came along; and it took a chance

It wasn't a conscious decision

My heart loved you; I just never told it not too

Feelings don't change...
I don't deny it
But I'll try not to let my eyes sparkle
Or smile a special smile for you

I'll forget our special moments;
I'll forget those sweet memories
Forever...I'll wipe them away

Yet...if I do that; I'll be lost in the depths of regret and sorrow

And I'll cease to look forward to a better tomorrow

I love you and I will always love you
A heart can love two
But only to one it will remain most true

And forever and ever,
That person will be you....

May be I'm wrong;
May be I should move on
'Cause things might just go wrong

How can I stay in love with a person,
I call my friend?
Can you even think the pain it causes me?
When I have to pretend, I no longer possess feelings for you?

I'll fight against this....
I'll try and fall out of love
For letting you go...is the only way I can see you happy

I can see hurt written in your eyes
And each time, a little bit of life in them dies

My presence is torture,
I can understand that
My laughter;
That's pain
My face haunts your dreams...

Don't worry, my dear...
Come tomorrow, all this is going to end
I'll suppress my feelings
And once more.....
We'll just be friends...

June 7, 2008

To Whom Shall I Complain?

To Whom Shall I Complain
~the poem~

I always thought that life would take it's own course
I always knew what would come after this
I never had to try hard, never used much force
I never thought there'd be anything I'll really miss

I don't know what really happened inbetween
And I try to figure why I've fallen,but in vain
I really don't know how I should come clean
Cause I don't know, to whom shall I complain

I never had the time to care about what I own
Never thought it'd be stolen away
Didn't realize that one fine day it'd be gone
I realized this: nothing in this world stays

I can't think, I can't breathe, I can't win
It's like I'm caught in torrents of heavy rain
I really don't know how I should come clean
Cause I really don't know, to whom shall I complain

I never learnt to value what I have right now
No one ever told me things are now or never
No one told me I'd end up losing all I have somehow
I learnt it late, but it's true:Nothing lasts forever

I'm going away, fading from this life I know
Some place which will rid me of this aching pain
Some place that'll rid me of all my sorrow
Where I'll know the answer to this: To whom shall I complain

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