I was sitting alone, with music playing in the background,
And he was walking in front of me,
When our eyes met – everything suddenly stood still – there was no sound.
I felt as if in my stomach, butterflies had broken free.
He smiled at me, and said, “Hello”
I simply blushed, because the words failed to come.
And I didn’t know,
That this was the meeting that would change our lives,
This was the moment where I’d begin to get hypnotized.
As the ways wore on,
I caught myself lying in wait for a glimpse of you,
And whenever you saw me, you would smile.
I just needed to know if you felt the same thing too.
But I never had the chance to ask,
Yet your face haunted me in my dreams,
And I kept praying to God to let me understand,
What these really means…
Before I knew it I had fallen in love,
With someone I believe to be an angel from above.
And each time someone asked me if I did like you,
I would laugh and say, “of course not, it’s untrue.”
But the secretly the heart will always wish,
That you understand how much I love you, and acknowledge I exist.
You became the God that I placed above myself,
Always near to me but somehow very far.
It didn’t make me feel terrible,
Because I know it is only at night one can see the stars.
Your sweet face, and smile, I would always worship,
You’re the moon of my darkest nights,
Fears seem to disappear when you would shine bright.
Even the tiniest memory that had you,
Was kept safely locked away in my heart,
I kept going around in circles hoping to find you.
And yet, I was happy to be around you, and never be completely a part,
Of your life, or tell you how I feel,
I knew I was making this difficult for myself.
But it was the pain that made me know how it is actually real.
One day the pain that I had cherished so long,
Got hold of my soul, and the war went on…
The pain wanted to stop hurting me,
It wanted to set me free…
But my heart obstinately,
Refused to let it go,
The two forces wore me out, and I closed my eyes,
I saw your face, smiling at me, saying, “Hello.”
A smile crept to my lips,
And I was finally at peace.
I could hear muffled voices from everywhere,
I could feel warm arms wrapped around me,
I knew that you were there.
“What is wrong?” I could hear a familiar voice cry,
But I had no strength left to reply.
“If you love me, why did you choose to die?”
My eyes fluttered open, and I looked at you,
But our time was numbered – that I knew.
“You didn’t see me, till I was gone,
Don’t worry, dear, your memories will live on.”
I could feel Eternal sleep wrapping itself around me,
As I hugged him tightly, as though
I wouldn’t let him go.
I felt his warm lips pressed against my cold forehead,
I reached out and touched his cheek, and softly said,
“I will soon from your memory fade.”
I know not where he laid me to rest,
But I still remember the warmth, and the lying,
With my head on his chest,
It has been around a thousand years now,
The memories still haunt me somehow.
I don’t know where he lies now too,
Yet I keep wishing, always hoping, he’d come one day,
And say –
“Yes, I did love you too.”